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Love with a Hint of Despair

A recent email I sent for a possible Zoom meeting: In keeping with our low brow intellectual goals for this event some of the topics to include: Final Four Marriage Bracket - who is breaking up, hooking up and who is zooming who?Coffee Cup Happy Hour - how many of our coworkers are drinking alcohol during zoom meetings and why isn't everyone?Pandemic ... More

Pacing a Pandemic

I had my first friend unable to be with a dying family member due to Covid-19 quarantine.  She experienced the heart-wrenching agony of her loved one dying alone and compounded by the realization that she will be grieving alone too.  I have no words to offer beyond a profound sadness for her and her family. I think this may be the first of many of these ... More

Notes from a Pandemic 3/23/20

I coughed five times last night when I started to go to sleep. And then I spent the next thirty minutes trying to decide what I would do if I was getting sick. How would I protect JoAnn? I ran through my plan again. And again. And then I fell asleep without another cough. I imagine everyone is going through the same mental loop. We, and it is a ... More

Notes from a Pandemic – March 16, 2020

KT and I decided to start writing down what we will be experiencing now and in the future. I write so we remember. When Katie and I were in the Caymans in January, I mentioned that some of the scientists I follow on Twitter were concerned about developments in China surrounding a novel virus. We discussed what we would do in a worst-case scenario. ... More

Training in a Pandemic

I love reading dystopian novels but I never thought that I might be living in one.  The coronavirus has focused my concern on my family, my community and my businesses.  In the process, I have pondered where training fits into this equation in a time of potential crisis.  Here are my thoughts: My training for my health is now my focus.  ... More

Break Before Breaking

I thought I would want to resume running this morning.  When the alarm went off at 5 am, I contemplated staying in bed.  Once I was awake and caffeinated, it was clear that I confused wanting with hoping.  I decided that hoping was not a great mental state to resume training and instead I walked the dog and sat in the hot tub.   I have been ... More

12 Hour Timed Ultra Race Report – Minne Ha-Ha

“When I get to 50 miles, I am going to walk.”  KT’s response, “Not yet.” Me: “No. I reached my goal.”  KT: “You can win overall.” Me: “I am going to cry.” KT: “No you are not.”  Me: “Yes, I am.” KT: “That is okay but keep running.” I did keep running for another eleven plus miles and fumed every ... More

I Deserve This…

After a recent race, I ran into a successful athlete that I only know via social media.  I introduced myself and asked her about her race. She responded with a myriad of reasons why she didn’t perform to her expectations.  Some of the reasons were internal and others were external. I have been around enough athletes to know to ask a simple follow up ... More

My Hero is Home

During Ann's nineteen months of cancer treatment, my duties were simple; love her, be with her, make sure she got the best medical treatment possible, and stay strong. For nineteen months I kept the tears and horror at bay. After her death, my hardest challenge has been to stop crying. Last weekend we held her memorial service and over 500 friends ... More

Enduring with Training

After a recent physical exam, my MD asked me the standard mental health questions.  Are you sad? Is it disrupting your life? I remember saying yes to every question. She paused and pointed out that there are medications that could be helpful for me.  I looked at her and explained that my best friend and sister received a terminal prognosis.* Ann was ... More